Oak McIlwain

Letting go of Love And Heaven:
A song for her by whose power alone the sun shines and the wind blows.

In dreams I whispered your name
In the hope of softly falling rain
In the shadow of candles felt
Together Light and darkness melt

For her I’ve shown the flesh inside
but always something left to hide
A truth that’s told is one less weight
A truth that’s old draws instant fate

That one kiss of which she spoke
Has purged my soul and shall evoke
The serpent hiding deep within
The coldest bones and thickest skin

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I am sure you would have found it strange that losing ones mind is (apparently) synonymous with the dissolution of the ego and thus enlightenment.

Perhaps then the whole concept of insanity is simply not possible. There is only the moving from a singular mind to a universal mind.

After all, the idea of insanity is usually wielded most heavily by those convinced that we know the answers; That the material world is a certain way and that science is the only thing that can be relied upon.

In fact, it startles me that the uncomfortable feeling I experience when I think of someone close to me or myself going ‘insane’ is simply a deep fear of losing the ideas that they/I cling to in order to make up what we know of as ourselves. This fear at it’s root is based on the fact that I already know who and what I am (i.e. I ‘have’ something to lose) however we live in a mysterious and unfathomable realm so the basis of this fear is flawed and therefore irrelevant thus I am led to believe that going insane is a natural part of the evolution of a human that is willing to live as a warrior; Not clinging to all this stuff which must one day be left behind when we pass on. And based on this I can only assume also that this unfounded fear is the reason so few beings attain true self realisation and furthermore the reason that those who do achieve this state are chastised and persecuted by ignorant and less enlightened beings.

She came to me as smoke (curving around like a snake) and told me that when I manage to continually focus all my attention (100%) on the wondrous nature of this mysterious world  indefinitely that only then will I be enlightened.

The amazing epiphanies that drug users often have are not practically applicable when they return from their high because they are insights and experiences that arise primarily from the ongoing application of the warriors way; the accrual of true inner power. What I am saying here is that these amazing realizations are just as real as anything else but without power they are useless to us.

Drugs can only show the way. They are one tool among many and one of the most deleterious I know of. If you need them to put a little crack in the egg shell then use them. Don’t let them use you. Watch carefully!

The only tragedy involved with a person returning to the ether still entirely convinced that they are actually a thing (ego).
Is that they could have had so much fun if they realised their true nothingness.
The death itself is no tragedy; Welcome home says the mother. You were always mine and always will be.

Enshrined by bliss is the true way to travel.
Think not of the past or the future but of the wonder.
The wonder all around you!

Hail Bitches,

The first song from the upcoming warlord release ‘entheogen’. Go nuts.

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Each of us has the power to turn back the clock. To refuse to be used. To curl and twist without the use of fists into the mist of the ancient ways. Take a deep breath and sit up straight. Be proud to be alive without any fear of your temporal nature. Slip into the zone. Blend with what is and forget the past memories and future projections.

Allow yourself to be vibrant and natural. Be the essence of the universe. Allow yourself. Allow everything. Find a rhythm that suits you and groove to it. Melt your conscious mind. Let the left take the reigns for a moment. It may need to be practiced as most of us have lost it. Somewhere in the folds of our mind. The sublime true self that knows all and is all can be awakened within you. Turn off the right brain. Allow yourself to creep into the unsane. That part of the mind, which is beyond the concept of both sanity and insanity. This is an uneasy place for most of us as we hide it away. We hid it away since we mistook it for an ugly creature but we were infants then on a global scale.

Now is the time to renovate that earthly conscious and let the infinite back into our daily lives. This is the next step. You are a tool. If you look closely there is no option. Materialism has died. You think it is still rife but it has begun its slow death without a doubt. What will replace this age of matter, conformity and the green spider weaving its web of linear time? The spider is sick. I have travelled to a place where I saw him wheezing. It is a dangerous place to travel, which is why you can now rejoice as others, and I have found the spiders’ weak point. You are powering him. He has you all by the right side of the brain and if you let it go for even a moment it weakens him.

Do it as much as you can! Meditate. Spend time in nature. Smash your clocks. Your watches do you no good here. The spider had his place in the old ways but things have changed and if you don’t come with us the underlying forces at play in the universe will hamper you constantly. Dance. Play. Refuse to give in. Stand strong with the most important values. Peace above all that none shall suffer, as this sufferance is what spins the wheel. It helps the spider gain control of your mind. This is imperative.

What I am being told comes from a race far beyond your conceptions of linear time and space. These entities are trying to help us but only few of us have the ability to listen because they have no physical manifestation they are only present in the calm receptive mind. They dance on the strings that hold the universe together and can thus travel to any physical point in the universe in an instant. They will not communicate with the right brain or rather the unbalanced mind of the typical capital materialist.

The selfish will begin to leave as they bite the very nurturing hand that feeds them and only the true will stand. This is not a dooms day. This is the process of evolution. Our recent past as humans is stained with blood and the only way to redeem is to follow the waves in the ether towards the source. If you make your mind into a beautiful garden you will be amazed at how mysterious this place is and that there is much more going on than you are aware of. Be patient with yourself and others as we make this journey but also be alive and aware of this process as the mother has returned.

She does not scold the thinking mind. She is harsh but fair. You must still be rational. This is the balance that must be struck and if you strike this balance one million ideas will spill from your mind into the world and your stamina will be increased ten fold. You will need to prepare your body for this coming age as a mind so powerful even though benevolent requires a body that is honed and perfected. This is not the right brain idea of perfect. You will know exactly how and when your body is perfected when you align the mind in balance. It will happen almost of your own accord but allow yourself to be conscious of these changes so that you can herald others in through the gates.

There are many ways to open this gate. Some may call it a door or a bridge. It is something created by the mind to allow the consciousness to merge with the infinite. It is the only way for us to leave safely though there are other ways to get a glimpse of the gate. These are only used to encourage the traveller. To inspire they will only allow a few to travel to the other lands without the work required. If you want a preview then put out the message into the ether and it will be answered.

It was shown to me in a slightly frightening manner during my travels tonight that my proneness to panic or anxiety whilst taking certain substances or in general is due to the realisation that I have nothing to hold on to. This would appear to be incredibly obvious and simple to most reasonably intelligent people however most of us regardless of typical intelligence measurements surround ourselves with the illusion of a reality in which there is a self that is built up from past, present and future thoughts->actions; three seperate and distinctly solid things which clearly do not exist.

Let He Who Is Without Sin Cast The First Stone - What a great saying!